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I fully admit I did not read the replies, so sorry if someone has already said it.

What you are doing is truly admirable and few would have the strength or sheer willpower to do what you did.
I know you feel ashamed over what you did, but I hope you feel proud over what your doing, and I hope your x wife and son are as well.

Now for your plan.
For me the idea of cutting all ties and just live on the road for a while sounds both exciting and romantic. It might be lonely sometimes but so is an empty house filled with nothing but bad memories. Being away for a while and maybe eventually finding a new place to settle, and start a new life... I bet many would give a lot to have that option, for you it's a reality

Good luck and thank you for sharing your story, and again, feel proud over what you have accomplished and keep doing every day.

I assumed they are divorced (or working on the official paper work due to comments like these;

estrange
[ih-streynj]

verb (used with object), estranged, estranging.

1. to turn away in feeling or affection; make
- - unfriendly or hostile; alienate the affections of:
- - Their quarrel estranged the two friends.


2. to remove to or keep at a distance:
- - The necessity for traveling on business
- - has estranged him from his family.


3. to divert from the original use or possessor.

to divert from the original use of marriage...


Family estrangement
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
Has absolutely nothing about estrangement being something illegal to do for other external parties while the couple is the target of the estrangement from external sources, directly interfering against the well being and morality of their union.


Definition of 'estranged'
estranged (ɪstreɪndʒd )

1. adjective
- - An estranged wife or husband is
- - no longer living with their husband or wife.
- - [formal]
- - * ...his estranged wife.


2. adjective
- - If you are estranged from your family or friends, you
- - have quarrelled with them and are not
- - communicating with them.
- - [formal]
- - * He was laid to rest yesterday without a final goodbye from his
- - estranged son.
- - * Joanna, 30, spent most of her twenties virtually estranged from
- - her father.


3. adjective
- - If you describe someone as estranged from
- - something such as society or their profession, you
- - mean that they no longer seem involved in it.
- - [formal]
- - * Arran became increasingly estranged from the mainstream of
- - Hollywood.

estranged (ɪˈstreɪndʒd )

adjective

1. separated and living apart from one's spouse
2. no longer friendly; alienated

Example sentences containing 'estranged'

Robert Malone's wife looked, like her estranged husband, as if she
had recently emerged from prison.
Bringle, Mary DEATH OF AN UNKNOWN MAN (2003)

An estranged wife does not travel thousands of miles with a small
child, just hoping they will be welcome.
Sara MacDonald SEA MUSIC (2003)

But what I could not accept, when all was said and done, was that he
had ever been wholly estranged from his faith.
Howatch, Susan ULTIMATE PRIZES (2003)


Blatantly enough, and to prove the point even further, most of those reference do not include the fact that and how a healthy marriage and relation is being attacked and to create dissent in the family by estranging an otherwise good couple apart from each others.
That is in fact criminal, and it is a form of estrangement as well, except that it is not perpetrated by the couple being the victim of the estrangement.
This occurs very often in military setting where one of the spouse may be from another country.

Rather, the language refers in a small percentage to being estrange from one's faith, or in this case, from his faith.
And even then, it seems to have been written in a fictional context rather than a non-fiction, factual, scientific context.

...Such propaganda.
As if , one claiming to be of good character when with rather obvious vicious intentions, and those same people supporting it, hiding it and so on, as if to make money from it, with yet more of the same intent, which can hardly be any good or moral in fact, despite the disguise that it is.
In any case, it may be, however, the level of it is of extremely low nature.

Didn't bothering reading through the entire thread, though I did read the entire OP.

I would say definitely forget about the house, and focus on saving money. You spend most of your time away anyway, so it seems to me like the logical and economically sound thing to do and if you can save money it will help you get back on your feet.

In terms of finances and health, one big recommendation I have is to change your diet (depending on what your diet is currently). I can give you a list of foods that are cheap and insanely beneficial that will change your life if you eat like this every day, and I think can help you heal emotionally, psychologically and physically if need be, and should also save you money.

Flax seed powder (complete source of protein as well as omega 3 and omega 6 fatty acids, the healthy fat you need for the body)
Spinach (complete source of vitamin K and many other vitamins and minerals)
Carrots (complete source of vitamin A plus a whole boat load of other goodness)
Bananas (organic bananas are lovely because they are one of the few organic foods which are actually cheap and they contain lots of good stuff like potassium, manganese, calcium, and b6)
Beans (black, white, kidney, whatever, complete source of protein, iron and phytonutrients)
Lentils (similar to beans, very healthy)
Seeds (sunflower is usually cheap and insanely healthy, complete source of protein, thiamine, b6, and vitamin E and all kinds of great minerals like iron, magnesium, manganese, phosphorous and zinc)
Oranges (lots of oranges, like two to four a day depending on how active you are, source of Vitamin C, anti-inflammatory and healing properties and very hydrating and delicious)
These foods all have some calcium in them, but fennel seeds are a great source of calcium (just don't consume too many of them)

If your body is healthy it should be producing its own B12, and vitamin D can be obtained from the sun but if those two things worry you (or if you don't get much sun) then you can supplement your diet with almond milk (or another plant-based milk) which is fortified with B12 and Vitamin D as well as calcium.

This is not some weird, hippy raw vegan BS. I have nothing against cooked foods, in fact most of these foods can be cooked into delicious meals (although in general, mostly-raw is the way to go), and I usually add a baked potato or two to my diet for the extra nutrition and cooked starches which are extremely beneficial and, according to research, is likely one of the causes for the development of the human brain. Boiled rice is another healthy cooked food if you wish to add it, although I highly recommend black or otherwise whole grain rice rather than white (which has been stripped of important nutrients).

You can mix the spinach with the carrots (shredded) into a salad with vinegar and pepper, garlic or whatever other powder you want for flavour, or you can add whatever other type of flavouring you want like lemon juice. You can also add whatever else you want to this salad, like nuts, raisins, or whatever, but the spinach and the carrots are the two important things. So many health benefits.

You can buy most of these foods in bulk for insanely cheap, but since you're on the road a lot I don't know what your diet situation is, but you can buy the beans canned and pre-cooked and they are still fairly cheap, as for the other stuff, you must have some way to store food in your truck where it can stay cool, right?

Anyway this is how I eat after years of research and experimenting and what I feel is more or less the perfect diet for a human being, it's mostly-raw so there is very little cooking involved and all of your nutrition is covered from completely healthy plant sources. The only processed item is the almond milk which is just crushed almonds in water fortified with B12 and Vitamin D.

The only cooked foods are the beans and lentils (although most of these foods can be cooked if you want to; carrots are great boiled or baked in some kind of pot with water/oil/seasonings, spinach can be boiled, seeds can be baked)

The bottom line is that this diet covers everything your body will ever need or want (including delicious taste) and it WILL make you feel amazing. I know from experience this diet can heal almost anything. When I eat this food I feel like a million dollars, i can do things i never used to be able to do, my mind is more clear than ever and, it's nice to know that I am not contributing to the death or suffering of any other innocent animals in factory farming.

There is a lot of other stuff you can add to this diet if you want, like celery and other leafy greens like kale and lettuce if you want, or other fruits like tomatos and grapes, but these are the basics, the absolute essentials that will cover all of your nutrition and make you feel more alive than you've ever felt.

I'm not preaching, I'm simply giving you advice here which can change your life for the better. This, combined with other spiritual pursuits like meditation, or prayer (if that is your thing) can benefit your life greatly. Changing my diet, for me, was one of the most important things I've ever done in my life, along with pursuing meditation. Absolutely essential.

This stuff is also NOT very expensive, I only spend about 120 bucks a month on groceries, it may be a bit more expensive for you depending on where you are and what you buy, but remember, LIFE IS CHEAP AND SIMPLE. Death is expensive and inconvenient (waiting a half hour in a "fast food" drive through, etc).

Anyway, even if you don't take this advice, I hope you make good decisions in your life and I wish you all the best, I hope you manage to get back on your feet and I hope you never have to deal with an addiction again. I wish you all the peace in the world.