Intergalactic Summit

Lords and Ladies, I am pleased to announce that I have escaped from my own Damnation. This is an confession and a plea. I will confess all the sins I have done, and plead for mercy and guidance.

I began my journey as a humble slave to the Amarr Empire. I lived a simple life filled with dignity as I knew the service I did was for the greater glory of God. However, the flames of discontent spread though my fellow workers and eventually consumed us all, myself included.

The rage which can burn inside a matari's blood can lead to some truly amazing, and horrifying things. In my youth and anger we slew our holder, not stopping at his wife and children. We simply killed them all, their cries for mercy and pain where drowned by our yells of victory and bloodlust.

We stole our master's ship and made our way to what we imagined our new homeland would be. During our flight in a small cramped quarters in the frigate the rage in me subsided and I saw all that was left inside me, utter blackness. I realized the horrors I have done and the sins to God and his servants.

The emptiness inside me lingered for years after I made it to the republic. I became part of the new Matari society and poured my entire being into the republic. I worked harder than I ever did as a slave, but for what? When I was in the Empire I was working on something much larger, much grander than myself. In the Republic everyone worked for themselves and cared nothing for their kin. I learned in those long years that the closest I ever had to a proper family was the holders in which I murdered.

My work was beginning to pay dividend. I was admired in a capsuleer program, fast-tracked for a career in the Republic Navy officer. I spent long years training my mind and body for war, but nothing would do anything for my damaged soul.

Last week, just prior to my graduation, a spark lit inside me. This small spark did more for me than any amount of boosters or booze. I realized that I could redeem myself and fill the void of my heart again.

As I said before, I have escaped from Damnation. I stole a Republic fleet Firetail and made a rush to Amarr as fast as I possibly could. I have just made dock at Amarr Emperor family academy station and I feel, for the first time in years, home.

I am tired but home.

Now I ask my fellow faithful, where should I go now? What can be done to repent for my long list of sins. Can anyone help guide my soul.

To those who think I'm a traitor for leaving the Republic... **** you. My life has been marred by sins so great I may never be able to save my soul in the eyes of God.

Spes Aeternam
Aboard the Sancti Angeli, Republic Firetail.
Rebel of the Rebellion

I was brought to Rens, the tribal 'bond's i saw where little more than gangs of thugs. At the end of the day freedom meant the right to trample on your brother's and sisters because you could.

I made something of myself, I am a capsuleer, not everyone comes to such an place.

Ahh, well there are defiently lots of small gangs about Republic space. Some with good intent and some with bad intent. Those are not tribes however. The gangs are there because more of them together would most likely mean whoever they went up against might have a chance at doing what is demanded of them, thus giving the gang some profit and allowing them to live how they liked.

But yes, that you have. Not many have come to the level of a capsuleer. I hope that someday, whatever you achieve, would be what your teachers at the acadamy would have hoped for.

That there is. I'm not sure anything I could ever do could resolve me of that particular crime. This is why I seek guidance from my betters as to what I can do.

Still, my faith has gotten me very far so far and I am not going to call it quits now. As I'm sure you all know my race is known to be a bit stubborn at times.

If the empire called upon me to bring a load of my race to learn the ways of God I would be more than honored to have the chance to serve.

If I could change history and stay a slave I would gladly do so. My heart would be free from the sins which now burden me.

So basically what your saying is that the justification for doing evil is the fact that your free to do it...

I have done horrid things because I was free to do so. Sins to my own body, countless boosters and other carnal pleasures because I could. I have sinned in perhaps the most foul way possible, murdering an innocent man and his family for no reason other than that 'bloodlust' you speak as if your proud of it.

When a dog begins to bite and snarl, you put it in a cage, not let it loose and say 'look at it expressing its freedom.'

You speak about good and evil like it isn't clearly defined. It IS clearly defined. Gods word though scripture tells us humans exactly what good is and evil is. Because we KNOW with little doubt what right and wrong are it is the duty of Gods people to enforce his law.

You talk as if the ability to make my own choices have bettered me somehow. This couldn't be further from the truth! My own will has caused me to do irreparable harm. I don't accept 'i learned my lesson' as justification for what I have done. Since I was capable of murder of children I have obviously proven myself as nothing more than a beast.

Worse still the only thing I have learned from the whole experience is how much I enjoy killing. The adrenaline, the bloodlust, and the rage is more addictive than anything I have ever known. It is empty though. Completely hollow compared to the spender of God.

Since I have returned to the empire I have begun missions for the Amarr navy. My first was to destroy an freedom fighter outpost. I wasn't sure how it was going to feel to turn my guns of my Firetail on my former classmates at the academy. To kill my own blood for the good of the empire...

It felt marvelous.

Such is the curse of my damned blood. I pray my betters can cure me of such blood-lust.

Good and evil is all a matter of perspective. I believe that I am good. Your Amarr friends believe that they are good. I don't doubt that. Doing anything that you yourself believe is "evil" is... more than counter-intuitive. However, the definition of "good" and "evil" varies from person to person.

It so happens you chose to have your "good" and "evil" dictated by a book that has been rewritten so many times throughout the millennia that any semblance of its original content hardly remains. That is fine. Me, I choose to do what is right (for my brothers, for my Republic, for Ushra'Khan, and for humanity everywhere).

You have made your choice, and you believe it is good. You have made past choices you now believe to have been bad, so you strive to be better. I, too, have made my choice and I believe it is good. I, too, have committed acts in my past that I am not proud of.

It's called moral relativism and you Amarr seem to have a great deal of trouble with it. Focus your piety upon yourselves and be "good", such that others with the same vision will join you and approve of you. Some Amarr do this. Others impose this piety upon their lessers. However, that is not true piety. That is mindless slavery, fit only for beasts of burden, not people.

Otherwise, as a matter of honor, keep in mind that you will repay in full every drop of Matari blood you willfully spill.

The tribes and the clans within look after their people. But there is a catch. You have to want to be there, and you have to work to be there. They are vital components of Matari society and essential to our wellbeing as a people. They are not social clubs.

Matari society goes deeper than Rens bazaar. It goes from the grandest of the Republic's tribal circles and most esteemed offices right down to the family unit and individual Matari.

In short, your tribe will look after you, but you must look after your tribe.

I sincerely hope this clarification of sociology in the Republic helps your decision.

I don't think you get it. You act as if there is choice involved with this. There is no such thing! I find the values of the Matari people to be a disease which should be contained and destroyed.

I get these insane notions from people who 'value freedom of choice' to do what they feel is right. Then I am being told by those same people that what my choice is evil. Not only do you offend the word of God, but you offend your own values.

The absolute word of God decrees that there is ONE people whom follow his holy word. All others MUST be shown the way of the lord.