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So I had to kill some guys, and now I feel weird about it.

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Samira Kernher
Cail Avetatu
#41 - 2013-05-29 23:18:54 UTC  |  Edited by: Samira Kernher
Stitcher wrote:
Correct me if I'm wrong, but as (presumably, seeing as you're in PIE) a follower of the Amarr faith, don't you believe in an afterlife? To me, that belief seems incompatible with the idea that killing somebody is the worst thing you can do to them.


One can only reach Heaven if they have embraced God. Those who die away from God's light are forever lost. And even if they do follow God, their actions in life will be judged by God. Therefore, killing is never an appropriate solution unless there is no other choice. When possible, a criminal should be chained, not slain, so that they might undergo penance.

When you simply kill someone who has done wrong, you have robbed them of the opportunity to redeem themselves before God and ensured they will receive a worse judgment in the hearafter.

Quote:
Indenture, lashes, punitive cybernetics, Vitoxin, confinement and shock collars? Suffering is an infinitely worse experience than oblivion, and lacks that equality that death has in coming to all of us in time - some people suffer, others don't.

As far as I'm concerned, to inflict pain and suffering on another human being is a worse crime than to kill them.


I still carry the scars from the punishments I rightly received for my own sins, and I would sooner suffer under the lash again than face oblivion.

Suffering is temporary. Oblivion is eternal.
Caellach Marellus
Stormcrows
#42 - 2013-05-30 00:03:15 UTC
Samira Kernher wrote:

And killing is the worst thing you can do to a person. Especially when it is dozens or hundreds of people as in this example. Your priorities are the ones that are off.


I can think of a couple of scenarios that would be considered a fate worse than death.

When your gut instincts tell you something is wrong, trust them. When your heart tells you something is right, ignore it, check with your brain first. Accept nothing, challenge everything.

Ayallah
Brutor Tribe
Minmatar Republic
#43 - 2013-05-30 00:26:03 UTC
You don't. Ever. You live with it, you question yourself every second of every day wondering if you did the right thing. You go from times of anger and energy to lost in deep thought and depression. You wonder about yourself, about who you are and what you have become. You question the rush it gives you, the most satisfying thing in the world. You try to see beauty in things, you live for the minutes you forget about it. Hope they become hours, days or weeks. You live until it doesn't show outside, until you can ignore when others talk about it. Until you grit your teeth and push it out of your mind.

You just have to live with it. With the doubt, the weight, the absolute unchangeable past.

Don't kill unless you absolutely have to. Unless it is completely necessary.


You just have to live with that.

Goddess of the IGS

As strength goes.

Stitcher
School of Applied Knowledge
Caldari State
#44 - 2013-05-30 00:31:21 UTC  |  Edited by: Stitcher
Samira Kernher wrote:
I still carry the scars from the punishments I rightly received for my own sins, and I would sooner suffer under the lash again than face oblivion.

Suffering is temporary. Oblivion is eternal.


Ever heard of Stockholm Syndrome?

Oblivion means a total absence of experience. Did the billions of years prior to your birth trouble you? Were you tormented by the fires of the supernovae in which your atoms were concocted? Did the aeons that went by as celestial gas clouds coalesced into worlds that eventually gave rise to your body bore you? Did the volcanic upheavals that furnished those worlds with atmospheres hurt you?

No. You did not exist to experience them, and frankly if that's where I'm going then it's the fate I would prefer over an eternity. I mean, eternity? Forever, and ever, and ever without reprieve, without rest, without relent? Eternal eternity?

The thought honestly terrifies me. I couldn't name a worse punishment than existing forever.

and even if it really is paradise, where ever moment of your perpetual existence is the pinnacle of rapturous bliss, versus oblivion, then you've not addressed my point. In the former, dying is no bad thing and if you really believe that's where you're going then how can being killed be a bad thing?

And if it's the latter, and all that waits for us is simply ceasing to be, then it's the quality of our life that matters most in which case suffering and servitude and punishment for wanting to be a human being rather than somebody's... property strikes me as a worse fate than a swift end.

best of all to live out a long and healthy life on your own terms, rather than at the whim of god-botherers, though.

AKA Hambone

Author of The Deathworlders

Lilya Tvavarivich
Perkone
Caldari State
#45 - 2013-05-30 00:47:27 UTC
Pain and discomfort are not things to be fearful of. They are burdens God gives us to bear, for which we should be grateful and happy.

This also means that using pain as a punishment is a mistake. As Father Lucius would always say, teaching someone to fear pain is the same as teaching them to love their flesh. We should learn to love our souls instead, and to smile in relief when our flesh is stripped away. It is dirt and dust, and nothing more.
Kithrus
Imperial Academy
Amarr Empire
#46 - 2013-05-30 00:55:02 UTC
Stitcher wrote:
Samira Kernher wrote:
I still carry the scars from the punishments I rightly received for my own sins, and I would sooner suffer under the lash again than face oblivion.

Suffering is temporary. Oblivion is eternal.


Ever heard of Stockholm Syndrome?

Oblivion means a total absence of experience. Did the billions of years prior to your birth trouble you? Were you tormented by the fires of the supernovae in which your atoms were concocted? Did the aeons that went by as celestial gas clouds coalesced into worlds that eventually gave rise to your body bore you? Did the volcanic upheavals that furnished those worlds with atmospheres hurt you?

No. You did not exist to experience them, and frankly if that's where I'm going then it's the fate I would prefer over an eternity. I mean, eternity? Forever, and ever, and ever without reprieve, without rest, without relent? Eternal eternity?

The thought honestly terrifies me. I couldn't name a worse punishment than existing forever.

and even if it really is paradise, where ever moment of your perpetual existence is the pinnacle of rapturous bliss, versus oblivion, then you've not addressed my point. In the former, dying is no bad thing and if you really believe that's where you're going then how can being killed be a bad thing?

And if it's the latter, and all that waits for us is simply ceasing to be, then it's the quality of our life that matters most in which case suffering and servitude and punishment for wanting to be a human being rather than somebody's... property strikes me as a worse fate than a swift end.

best of all to live out a long and healthy life on your own terms, rather than at the whim of god-botherers, though.


Your assuming your wants needs and desires when you are dead remain the same as a human does. Arguments of what a soul is exactly aside if you can humor me for a moment does not mean your experiences are the same.

An immortal indestructible soul isn't going to see the universe the way your body does. Conflict is no longer and issue because you have no food or resources to fight for.

We can only speculated what the hear after is like but to assume its like ours is short sighted.

Also your not a doctor so your speculation on Stockholm syndrome only carries so much weight.

Darkness is more then absence of light, it is ignorance and corruption. I will be the Bulwark from such things that you may live in the light. Pray so my arms do not grow weary and my footing remain sure.

If you are brave, join me in the dark.

Scherezad
Revenent Defence Corperation
Ishuk-Raata Enforcement Directive
#47 - 2013-05-30 02:05:47 UTC
Kithrus wrote:
Your assuming your wants needs and desires when you are dead remain the same as a human does. Arguments of what a soul is exactly aside if you can humor me for a moment does not mean your experiences are the same.

An immortal indestructible soul isn't going to see the universe the way your body does. Conflict is no longer and issue because you have no food or resources to fight for.

We can only speculated what the hear after is like but to assume its like ours is short sighted.

Also your not a doctor so your speculation on Stockholm syndrome only carries so much weight.


While I can make no statement on the bulk of your argument, sir, Hakatain-haan is certainly a doctor.
Kim Ji-Young
Ji Young Kim Bap
#48 - 2013-05-30 02:48:38 UTC
Wow as usual my thread has diverted into a wacky to-ing and fro-ing session with people arguing about completely irrelevant stuff which is not about ME, so I'm going to quote some replies to try and steer things back on course.

Stitcher wrote:
If I were you, I'd be more ashamed of what you did to that slave. Dead is dead, the people you destroyed are beyond fear and pain and suffering. The slave, though? You delivered a living human being back into the hands of servitude and a master who probably had a punishment in store for runaways.

If you can live with that, but not with killing, then your priorities are awry. Both acts should weight on your soul, but harm to the living strikes me as the worse crime.


Well, what's a slave holder supposed to do, say "oh you ran away but we got you back, gosh how inconvenient here have a biscuit please don't do it again"? That would hardly motivate them to behave in future.

Heinel Coventina wrote:
Kim Ji-Young wrote:
Although I know that I'm not really to blame, I still feel bad anyway.


Do you feel bad when you walk by and see someone bang their heads against a wall until they killed themselves?


No, but if I was the one holding them by the back of their head while they did it, I might get a bit squeamish.


Stitcher wrote:
Correct me if I'm wrong, but as (presumably, seeing as you're in PIE) a follower of the Amarr faith, don't you believe in an afterlife? To me, that belief seems incompatible with the idea that killing somebody is the worst thing you can do to them.

Hell, I don't think that's the case and I don't believe in any kind of afterlife at all. Dead is dead, the worst has happened, it's going to happen to all of us someday. Indenture, lashes, punitive cybernetics, Vitoxin, confinement and shock collars? Suffering is an infinitely worse experience than oblivion, and lacks that equality that death has in coming to all of us in time - some people suffer, others don't.

As far as I'm concerned, to inflict pain and suffering on another human being is a worse crime than to kill them.


You've just inflicted pain and suffering on my eyes because I had to read this reply. By your own definition you are now worse than a murderer.

Also I'm not in PIE. I just think PIE are nice peace-loving folks who have helped me out a lot. PIE aren't the only followers of the Amarr faith in the whole of the Empire you know.
Stitcher
School of Applied Knowledge
Caldari State
#49 - 2013-05-30 09:29:27 UTC  |  Edited by: Stitcher
Kim Ji-Young wrote:
Well, what's a slave holder supposed to do, say "oh you ran away but we got you back, gosh how inconvenient here have a biscuit please don't do it again"? That would hardly motivate them to behave in future.


How about "I now see the error of my ways, human beings are not property, there are less barbaric ways to spread my faith, henceforth all of my slaves are free: Those who wish to stay on as salaried workers may do so without fear of the lash, the shock collar, the slaver hound or of Vitoxin. those who wish to leave may go with my blessing and know that you always have a home here should you choose to return."

Stitcher wrote:
You've just inflicted pain and suffering on my eyes because I had to read this reply. By your own definition you are now worse than a murderer.


And your hyperbole is excruciating. I guess we're all monsters here.

Quote:
Also I'm not in PIE. I just think PIE are nice peace-loving folks who have helped me out a lot. PIE aren't the only followers of the Amarr faith in the whole of the Empire you know.


The comment about being in PIE was directed at Samira Kernher. There are other subjects in this conversation besides your ego.

Lilya Tvavarivich wrote:
Pain and discomfort are not things to be fearful of. They are burdens God gives us to bear, for which we should be grateful and happy.


Make that Stockholm syndrome and masochism.

AKA Hambone

Author of The Deathworlders

Kim Ji-Young
Ji Young Kim Bap
#50 - 2013-05-30 09:36:31 UTC
Stitcher wrote:
Kim Ji-Young wrote:
Well, what's a slave holder supposed to do, say "oh you ran away but we got you back, gosh how inconvenient here have a biscuit please don't do it again"? That would hardly motivate them to behave in future.


How about "I now see the error of my ways, human beings are not property, there are less barbaric ways to spread my faith, henceforth all of my slaves are free: Those who wish to stay on as salaried workers may do so without fear of the lash, the shock collar, the slaver hound or of Vitoxin. those who wish to leave may go with my blessing and know that you always have a home here should you choose to return."


Don't be silly. No slave holder does that, it defeats the purpose of having slaves in the first place.

Stitcher wrote:
There are other subjects in this conversation besides your ego.


I know. This troubles me.
Samira Kernher
Cail Avetatu
#51 - 2013-05-30 10:10:44 UTC
Stitcher wrote:
Samira Kernher wrote:
I still carry the scars from the punishments I rightly received for my own sins, and I would sooner suffer under the lash again than face oblivion.

Suffering is temporary. Oblivion is eternal.


Ever heard of Stockholm Syndrome?

Oblivion means a total absence of experience. Did the billions of years prior to your birth trouble you? Were you tormented by the fires of the supernovae in which your atoms were concocted? Did the aeons that went by as celestial gas clouds coalesced into worlds that eventually gave rise to your body bore you? Did the volcanic upheavals that furnished those worlds with atmospheres hurt you?

No.


I know what oblivion means, and those things do trouble me. The thought that so many billions of years went before my brief existance began is a terrifying thought. So much history that we will never be able to experience ourselves.

Quote:
You did not exist to experience them, and frankly if that's where I'm going then it's the fate I would prefer over an eternity. I mean, eternity? Forever, and ever, and ever without reprieve, without rest, without relent? Eternal eternity?

The thought honestly terrifies me. I couldn't name a worse punishment than existing forever.


I couldn't name a worse punishment than oblivion. An eternal sleep from which you will never awake, everything that you are gone forever, no longer able to experience and learn and grow.

Quote:
and even if it really is paradise, where ever moment of your perpetual existence is the pinnacle of rapturous bliss, versus oblivion, then you've not addressed my point. In the former, dying is no bad thing and if you really believe that's where you're going then how can being killed be a bad thing?


It is not binary. Our faith and our actions are judged before God in the hereafter. To find perfect paradise, we must be pure in faith and pure in action. Those who lack faith find damnation (whether that is oblivion or something else), those who have faith but are impure in action will be judged unfavorably.

Only in life can we redeem ourselves for our sins. Thus ending another life is robbing that life of the opportunity of seeking penance and finding salvation before they appear before God for their final judgment.

Quote:
And if it's the latter, and all that waits for us is simply ceasing to be, then it's the quality of our life that matters most in which case suffering and servitude and punishment for wanting to be a human being rather than somebody's... property strikes me as a worse fate than a swift end.


We are all the property of God, and we all toil in His name. To graciously and humbly serve others is a virtue.
Shiori Shaishi
Doomheim
#52 - 2013-05-30 10:15:00 UTC
Samira Kernher wrote:
...no longer able to experience and learn and grow.

It's not as if you're doing a particularly good job at these. Maybe you would be better off.
Stitcher
School of Applied Knowledge
Caldari State
#53 - 2013-05-30 11:16:32 UTC
All of this hinges on the existence of a deity you cannot demonstrate the existence of. For me to accept even one word of it as being worth listening to, you need to cross that first and most trivial hurdle.

If you can't, then you've built an arch without the keystone.

AKA Hambone

Author of The Deathworlders

Lilya Tvavarivich
Perkone
Caldari State
#54 - 2013-05-30 13:16:04 UTC
Stitcher wrote:
Make that Stockholm syndrome and masochism.

It is neither. It is faith.

Stitcher wrote:
All of this hinges on the existence of a deity you cannot demonstrate the existence of. For me to accept even one word of it as being worth listening to, you need to cross that first and most trivial hurdle.

If you can't, then you've built an arch without the keystone.

Humanity itself is an arch built with the keystone of God. Take away God, and you are left with dirt and dust. A universe without God is ugly, cruel and completely without worth. Such an arch would deserve to crumble.
Kithrus
Imperial Academy
Amarr Empire
#55 - 2013-05-30 13:52:42 UTC
Scherezad wrote:
Kithrus wrote:
Your assuming your wants needs and desires when you are dead remain the same as a human does. Arguments of what a soul is exactly aside if you can humor me for a moment does not mean your experiences are the same.

An immortal indestructible soul isn't going to see the universe the way your body does. Conflict is no longer and issue because you have no food or resources to fight for.

We can only speculated what the hear after is like but to assume its like ours is short sighted.

Also your not a doctor so your speculation on Stockholm syndrome only carries so much weight.


While I can make no statement on the bulk of your argument, sir, Hakatain-haan is certainly a doctor.


A doctor in what?

Darkness is more then absence of light, it is ignorance and corruption. I will be the Bulwark from such things that you may live in the light. Pray so my arms do not grow weary and my footing remain sure.

If you are brave, join me in the dark.

BloodBird
The Crucible.
#56 - 2013-05-30 13:58:24 UTC
Kim Ji-Young wrote:
I've been trying to get along as a capsuleer ...

...So anyway, please share, thank you.


I like you. Never change.

Ston Momaki wrote:
*crap*


More worthless self-righteousness from one of the most worthless capsuleers out there.

I would appreciate it if you would stop making annoying noises unbidden whenever the opportunity presents itself.

Istvaan Shogaatsu wrote:
You are in the first few steps of a rising curve. The first few are the only ones that bother you.

The first few I killed bothered me, too. Not sure if I was even a capsuleer back then. The next dozen odd, less so. As they become more of a statistic, and less individual beings with futures and hopes which you've snuffed out, stomaching yourself ending them becomes trivial. The next hundred might as well not have been there. I stopped counting after a few thousand. Had I kept count, the guilt would have driven me mad, so I simply decided to stop feeling guilty. Then there was that thing with Daasa and the nerve gas, which bumped me up to fifty-six million... aaah, they really should put me down. I'm a bad influence on this species.


Funny thing is, if they ever started with you, they would not stop until quite a few if not all of us are silenced. Perhaps the cluster would be better off with that action, but that remains to be seen for sure.

Stitcher wrote:
If I were you, I'd be more ashamed of what you did to that slave. Dead is dead, the people you destroyed are beyond fear and pain and suffering. The slave, though? You delivered a living human being back into the hands of servitude and a master who probably had a punishment in store for runaways.

If you can live with that, but not with killing, then your priorities are awry. Both acts should weight on your soul, but harm to the living strikes me as the worse crime.


The Amarr believe otherwise. That is what counts for them. In their world-view reclaiming the slave was perfectly normal.

I agree with your assessment though that death is a mercy, in the proper situation. Denying it can in some cases be considered worse than granting it.
Steffanie Saissore
Tyrathlion Interstellar
#57 - 2013-05-30 14:42:56 UTC
I have found the following helps me deal with the act of killing:
After the guns have gone silent, I will search for survivors and help them any way I can. When that has been seen to, I take a moment to remember the dead; for myself, I offer them a toast and a silent prayer.

We travel in the dark of the new moon,

A starry highway traced on the map of the sky

Stitcher
School of Applied Knowledge
Caldari State
#58 - 2013-05-30 14:54:50 UTC  |  Edited by: Stitcher
Kithrus wrote:
A doctor in what?


I was a medic in the Ishukone Watch which involved psychiatric training so I could diagnose mental disorders in my squad. After retiring from field service I became a Trauma and Life Support surgeon with the Ishukone Watch Medical Support Corps.

When I became a capsuleer I graduated Doctorate of Science in Cybernetics from the School of Applied knowledge. Since graduating I have continued to study for doctorates. I have thus far earned two - Quantum Physics and Hydromagnetic physics.

Via implanted learning I have also attained doctorate-level educations in a broad variety of scientific and engineering fields, including electromagnetic physics, high-energy physics, mechanical engineering and astrogeology, though I am without formal qualifications in those fields.

All of which is completely irrelevant, however. Whether or not my diagnosis of Stockholm Syndrome is accurate is not a function of whether or not I am a qualified psychiatrist. You don't need to be a marine biologist to correctly identify a dolphin, nor do you need to be an astrophysicist to recognize a black hole.

AKA Hambone

Author of The Deathworlders

Shiori Shaishi
Doomheim
#59 - 2013-05-30 15:15:10 UTC
Quite. "Stockholm syndrome," or the tendency towards "traumatic bonding," as it's also known, is a psychological trait of humans, not a medical condition.
Kim Ji-Young
Ji Young Kim Bap
#60 - 2013-05-31 00:29:27 UTC
BloodBird wrote:
Kim Ji-Young wrote:
I've been trying to get along as a capsuleer ...

...So anyway, please share, thank you.


I like you. Never change.


People say that change is sometimes necessary but difficult. However, I don't like doing things that are difficult, so if it's also not necessary, then great! Thanks for your support.

Steffanie Saissore wrote:
I take a moment to remember the dead; for myself, I offer them a toast and a silent prayer.


Another piece of feedback pointing in the direction that getting completely drunk is the solution. Thanks for your guidance on this matter.