EVE General Discussion

Removed some off topic posts.

Remiel Pollard,

I am glad to see that people can be open about things that matter most to them in this hectic community. I myself suffer from a condition that is mental. I have very little support outside of my mother and close friends. The rest of the world doubts me and sets me back. I do push forward every day, just as you do. Depression and hostility is a major effect of my condition. When I am depressed it takes weeks or months for me to get over it, and during that time several bad thoughts come to me. So you are not alone in your fight.

What saved me from suicide in the end is the friends and family, how they would feel if I did such an act. I had a blade to my neck when the thought of those that do care were to be hurt from my action. From then on instead gravitating to suicidal action I walked away and take measures to not let that happen.

So in the end I am happy to live and meet new people in a vast community here. These people are great in their own way. I wish the best to you and if you ever want to chat feel free to contact me here.

Thanks for reading,

gobtcha

ps. sorry for horrible grammar or is it grammer

Challenge accepted.

Unless you hide behind alts. That'd be mean.

Glad to have another pilot back in the vast universe of EVE ! ! !

And have fun !

I've been afraid to log on here, all day. I've sat here most of the day, just shooting red crosses, fulfilling some minor alliance duties, I even managed to rally a small gang of newbs to chase a Proteus out of our home system. The game still took my mind off how broken I've been feeling, but that feeling was, and still is, sitting there behind a moment of reprieve thanks to nothing more than a good day on EVE. I even built a new Hyperion and caught a Vexor with it. That made me feel a little more excited.

Now, I'm on a freighter run with my alt, and bored, and out of habit, I came to the forums. A moment too late, I remembered, I was avoiding them, afraid of the notifications that would indicate the trolling and flaming I would have to face. I bravely ventured in here and to my dismay, found only a warm reception. My dread subsided immensely with Ramona's post, and everyone else that has offered their kindest has contributed now to a slightly happier man. But most importantly, you've confirmed that for once, I've put my faith in the right community.

I'm literally in tears reading your words. All of you. No, not those kinds of tears you sadistic pricks, the appreciative ones

These bouts don't last long, a week or two at most. But they come on incredibly strong. There is about a 24-48 hour period where it's REALLY bad, and then the rest I'm able to handle and at least 'pretend' I'm okay. My appetite today is non-existent. But I'm actually starting to feel hungry tonight, which is a good sign that even though depression has set in, my spirits are high. That's because of you guys, and EVE. The hour I spent with my pet cockatiel, another very good friend of mine who I named Enyo (I know, so nerdy), also contributed to an improvement. She likes to just sit on my knee and preen but, after a while, she'll get bored and demand head scratches and if she doesn't get em, she confiscates the keyboard from me.

Anyway, once again, thank you all. I know I'm getting a bit 'personal' about me and some people don't like it but, honestly, right now, I have no one else to share this with. And you've all been so wonderfully, perfectly caring and understanding that I'm just at a loss for how to really show my appreciation. I'd buy you all plex but I'm not very rich.

To those of you that offered a friendly 'ear' via mails, I appreciate it, but as I said in the OP, these times are trying and communication becomes difficult for me. It's taken me almost an hour just to write this much. Someone else could have posted in between this and Saisin's comment by the time I'm done. And I still feel like what I'm trying to say or express or whatever I'm doing isn't as cogent and cohesive as it could be.

Just one little thing, before I sign off for now. Just a minor correction. Thank you for your summer wishes, but it's winter here. I live in Australia. Coincidentally, the winter is my favourite season because it means I get to wear my fancy leather jackets

So, yeah. Thanks. Faith in humanity = **** but, faith in EVE community = confirmed.

Mr Pollard?

You are brave, sir. Best wishes to you.
P.S. I know how you feel, more than I'm willing to admit.

As do I.

Remiel, thank you for being as brave as you are, and sharing with us what you've been going through. I hope your corpmates appreciate the fact that they have a guy like you around.

Tbh, in all my years here only once have I seen someone trolling on a RL issue.

EDIT: A serious real life issue, not some phony first world problems that is.

So very true.

Ten years ago (has it really been that long?), I was officially diagnosed with clinical depression. I'm still taking antidepressants, and I fully expect that I'll be taking them for the rest of my life.

It's always different, and people who tell you 'they've been depressed once or twice' really only have the half of it. Depression isn't something that you just 'get over' or 'deal with', and (aside from the generalized malaise that's lumped under the label of 'being depressed') it's not something that happens once and then you're free of it.

Some of us are like the Energizer Bunny, refusing to give up. Some of us, I'm say to say, eventually just...wear out from the effort.

To the OP: Depression is definitely no picnic. I'm glad that you're still with us.

Much love brother, o7.