EVE General Discussion

I have autism. One of the fun things about autism is random, acute onsets of various comorbid conditions. I don't know when it happened, maybe today, maybe a few days ago, but I've only just today noticed a shift in my mood that is indicative of the onset of an acute bout of depression. These come on hard, when they do, but not often. Maybe once or twice a year. I dread each one, but here I am.

I have been nasty to some of my alliance members over the last couple of days, thinking it was all fun and games. I was wrong, it was spite. Not because I don't like them, but because depression makes me hateful, and I laugh because it gives me a rise. It's a horrible feeling to realise that this is what you are doing. It creates a bit of a loop, really, that ends up making it worse. Like it's not already bad enough.

A little over two years ago, before I started playing this game, things were worse. Much worse. I wasn't this cogent, this aware of my own mood or this aware of its consequences. I just wanted, before I go a bit silent for the next couple of days as I try to cope with this, stop by and tell you why things have changed.

It's you, this community, this game, its developers, my friends in my alliance - this entire community, whether you love me or hate me, I want you to know that I consider you all my friends, my only friends. Sure, I have a few family members and acquaintances I'm in contact with on Facebook, but it's not the same thing. They don't have the same daily contact with me that EVE and everyone that's a part of it does. Due to being on disability, and unsure of when I'm going to be able to go back to work, without EVE, I may have gone completely nuts.

So, thank you, everyone. No, I'm not quitting, I just came back ffs, so yes I'll still be playing, but in a rather incommunicative way, or 'carebearing', if you will.

That is all.

I know your feel

No troll

If you need someone to talk to out of your regular loop, send me a Evemail anytime

I for one am glad you came back.

All the best for the next few days (or however long it takes) and see you on the other side.

If there's anything I can do in game to help, i'd be more than happy to.

Hope things improve soon, take care of yourself.


Just let them know what's going on, I'm sure they'll shrug it off. I've told everyone ingame i suffer from PMT 97% of the month. I don't, I just enjoy shouting at them from time to time.

a mate of mine is doing this, http://www.theanxiousgamers.com/what-is-the-point/
Might be helpful, might not.
Kick that black dogs fuking teeth in dude o7

No one is perfect, i myself suffer with bouts of alcoholism which are usually sparked by or coupled with sadistic depressive episodes. Not really sure why it happens but it does from time to time. Doctors tell me its caused by the amount of stress im under in real life. Getting better at coping with it.

Judge not, lest ye be judged thyself. - The Bible.

I am sure no one will flame on you to much.

I, for one, Forgive you.

Fly dangerous and enjoy Eve online o/

Nice post.

Glad you came back Remi.

Rather proud of the EVE community right now. You always surprise me. take care dude and come back relaxed and explain to corpies.

What he said.

See you on the other side

o7

OP:
Best of luck to you. And +1 for giving a new (positive) meaning to the term HTFU.

Everyone Else:
comorbid : "existing simultaneously with and usually independently of another medical condition"