Intergalactic Summit

I think that the storage facility where my medical clone is stored has malfunctioned. I have filed a complaint but sense my immediate health doesnt seem to be affected, it is not likely to get much attention.

The problem is this. I cant remember how i got here in New Eden. I cant remember how I came to be a capsuleer. As long as I can remember I have just been a capsuleer and before that, nothing. I just woke up one day and I was. So i am interested in information that would shed some light on my origins. Was I chosen to be a capsuleer? Or did i originate as a clone? Do any of you remember a life before being a capsuleer?

Any information leading to any answers would be greatly appreciated !

I had a family? This is news. I hate to think they might have been murdered. How do you know this?

It's because I'm a doctor. (Disclaimer: I am not a doctor).

Seriously, though, yeah, that's not normal. You're supposed to remember your life before uploading. Otherwise how can you secretly ponder, in a cold sweat in the dead of night, whether you're actually you or if that sweet, innocent young thing you used to be committed suicide just so their clone-descendant could make ungodly amounts of money and hang out with other horrible space people.

And if we have to do it, why the hell should you not have to suffer, too?

I think you need to be less focused on whether everyone else can remember their past lives and more on regaining your own. You were human once, but then you became something more; it's impossible to just create a clone from nothing.

However, if your entire consciousness was not transferred into the clone, I believe it will be impossible to regain it. Better hit the books.

Sir;

I myself supper total retrograde and partial anteriograde amnesia due to a cloning accident some four years ago. I sympathize with you and hope that your memories can be recovered. If you would like I can get you in contact with the medical team which assisted in my recovery, as they have been (and continue to be) an enormous help in my regaining and retaining as much of my memory as possible. On a personal note, I would suggest you start writing a diary. It's wonderful for keeping things in memory.

Engram backup is a good emergency protocol, but only helpful in specific situations - when an irreparable fault occurs which results in an inoperable decision network, normally due to the formation of small-scale cycles. This will result in grand seizures and an inability to come to decisions. In this case, pulling from backup will lose the most recent data set, but it is a good backup.

This doesn't work very well at all in trying to maintain ones' own mind, however. One can't implant a partial engram without tremendous surgery and very specific implants which do not exist in the current easily-attached Capsuleer constellation of implants. They would have to be specially-designed for the situation. Cost-effectiveness suggests that a detailed diary will be more effective, and less costly, at reinforcing the specific activation potentials of the involved neurons.

You can consider it much like exercise for your brain, ma'am. It is important to keep fit, and ones' mind is no exception to this.

It's less a question of wealth and more a question of practicality. Unless one is willing to throw away a few billion ISK on every memory in order to get a map detailed enough for reconstruction, it's just not feasible to do.

I'm glad you like the shirt, it suits you very well!

I apologize, perhaps I was choosing improper words. In this context I was using the term 'decision' to mean a resolution of a decision matrix. An inability to come to decisions in this context is along the lines of 'I conclude that this convoluted mass of colour and edges is a face', or 'I decide that I will respond to this bright light by dilating my pupils.' These are not conscious decisions, but they are certainly decisions. The end results can vary widely, from schizophrenia to coma.

I guess it is funny, if you look at it as conscious decisions only :)

I remember everything before I di.. before I became a capsuleer, unfortunately.

But what you don't remember, I don't think it is malfunction, or any illness. It is a blessing. Just some parts of your previous life wasn't transferred to your clone, I mean, to you.

Do you know, that to become a capsuleer, you have to die? Whatever caused your decision to join the program, I am pretty sure that it wasn't very nice. I would recommend you to forget about getting information about former self.

Who knows, maybe it was your own decision to not copy your memories.

So, just enjoy your new life, pilot.